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Sunday, February 2, 2020

The Sunday Update 5: Kobe Bryant

It has been a week full of sad thoughts for me this past week. January was really kicking and screaming not to end even when so many people have wanted it to because of how much bad news was in it. I’m just glad it’s over!

Image by Andreas Lischka from Pixabay

The entire world was shocked to hear about the news that retired NBA star Kobe Bryant had passed away after being in a helicopter crash with his daughter and several others. As an old classmate of mine said, it’s one of those “you remember what you were doing when you heard it happen” events. I woke up, checked the time on my phone, and read the news notification of the chopper crash. I couldn’t fall asleep after that. It was only 5 AM. 

I think it’s not just the death of Kobe the person, the athlete, and the father/husband that gets to people, but also what he represents: how no matter who you are, no matter what you do, if it’s your time to go, it is your time to go. 

It’s always hard to hear news like this because of the person involved: someone who had so much promise, who was still young and had a lot to live for, and at the peak of health. It really brings to mind the common phrase that tomorrow is not promised to anyone and that death does not play favorites. It makes you reassess your own life and wonder if you have done the best you could with your own life and if there would be any regrets if you know that today would be your last.

Another news item that got me down was the confirmation that there was someone with the Novel Coronavirus in the country, and that this individual could have infected several more considering that she had toured several places in the country before she was admitted to a hospital. People in Metro Manila have already started hoarding alcohol/disinfectants and surgical masks to protect themselves from the virus. I hope that it won’t start a widespread panic of hoarding not just those items but food and medicine as well. I hope that the virus has not spread as much as what most are worrying about. I hope that somewhere in the world, someone is currently developing and would find a cure. 

All the news and speculation on the virus hasn’t helped with my anxiety since I am currently under the weather and have the flu. I have to travel for work and being in a closed space with many people will only make me more nervous not just of getting worse but of people who will most likely be more cautious around me since I look more Chinese than Filipino. I know I’m probably overreacting but I’m usually a worst-case scenario type of person so I can’t help it!

On the work front, my co-workers and I have been discussing plans for retirement and possibly moving on to other opportunities. It’s sad to know that after almost 2 decades in this industry, things will be changing soon. It’s also making me nervous about whether or not I would be happy with these changes. It’s unnerving. 

Change is inevitable. It can be gradual or it can be sudden and can catch you off-guard. Either way, I think that for someone like me who is so used to being in her comfort zone, change is not easy. I know that change is necessary for anyone and everyone to grow and to move on, but it doesn’t mean that it’s always a pleasant experience.

So many events that made me think of change this week. I’d love some comforting, non-change events for the next week (or month). I would like to snuggle into that comfort zone I have like a blanket for as much as I can while I still can.


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