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Sunday, December 6, 2020

The Sunday Update 16: Sleepless

This past week has been exhausting for me. For the past week, I have been waking up several times at night and struggle with getting back to sleep. Eventually, sometime very early in the morning, I end up awake without the possibility of getting back to sleep again. This has led to days where I am not completely myself because I am sleepy and out of focus throughout the day. The lack of sleep has meant being tired all the time because I have not been able to get the right amount of rest that I need.

Image by Jess Foami from Pixabay

Going to sleep at night, the time when I lay down to sleep in the evening is not the hard part. I work out daily, lately in the afternoon. The exhaustion from that workout helps me to be tired enough to fall asleep the moment my head is on the pillow. It’s staying asleep for a long amount of time that is my problem. I’m up every two hours or so until I end up being so awake that I can’t go back to sleep again.
I have tried meditating, listening to sleep sounds, and other recommendations given by well-meaning friends, but nothing has been able to help me to get back to sleep once I’ve woken up at some random hour that is usually between 3-5 AM. It has been so annoying that it puts me in a bad mood during the day. This is not good. I don't want to go back to my doctor's prescriptions because I don't want to be dependent on medicine to go to sleep. Plus, it's anti-anxiety medication so it's something I'm determined not to be dependent on. 

Aside from the lack of sleep, I have also noticed that I have been losing a lot of hair lately. I know we shed hair from our heads daily but the amount that I have seen fall off seems to be far from normal. I looked up any possible reason for it and it seems that I am not the only person who is experiencing hair loss during this pandemic. Most of the articles have said that this is stress-related but that it will go back to normal eventually. I guess until I can be all-zen about the situation or until this pandemic is over, I will continue to lose hair like this. If I suddenly appear with a really short haircut, this would most likely mean that the situation has gone from bad to worse. Hopefully, it doesn’t. In the meantime, I will be dabbing my scalp with my aloe vera tonic in the hopes that this would help with my hair loss situation.

I am looking forward to going on leave from work during the second half of the month. There are so many holidays back to back and I think it would be the best time for me to go on leave so that I can have the time to completely relax and unwind before the new year starts. Some people have asked me why I bother to go on leave since I am working from home anyway. For me, it is a completely different thing to be working from home and just being home. Even if I am home, I make it a point to finish the tasks assigned to me by the office during those eight hours that I am supposed to be working. To me, it’s only the setting that has changed, but the workload is pretty much the same. Some people might think that I have it easier, but I think that there is bigger pressure to prove that you can work from home by having an output that proves that you do not loaf around during work hours even if you are at home. I prefer working from home, and I would like to prove that I can be allowed and trusted to stay that way.

How has your week been? I hope that it has been better than mine. Stay safe!

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